Wednesday, May 10, 2006
BOOO!!! IM BACK PPLE...IM
FREAKIN BACK...
WAHHAHAHHAHA(
EVIL LAUGH)...
{♥ } you're everything i know
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
yoyoyo
{♥ } you're everything i know
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Eversince 2006 began, things in my love life seems to be taking a turn in events.....
I feel much happier and free...
Not much of a burden on my heart..
NO MORE TEARS, i hope..
NO MORE PAIN...
whhhhhheeeeeeee!!!
:)
{♥ } you're everything i know
Sunday, January 15, 2006
yo yo yo..what's happenin' pple..sorry that i haven been updating..hehe..been pretty lazy n busy to actually type out what has been happenin' lately..
Well,nothin great has been happenin..Only on new years eve, i went to drink with my gd fren kin. We bought black cat and drank like there was no tomorrow. Later on, bren came and drank a lil'. I was not drunk as in drunk till i cant even go home. I just couldnt walk properly..haha..kin was gone when we drank the last drop. She barely could open her eyes. I was chatty and doin crazy stuff to her. hehe..Eventhou i was tipsy, i quickly ask bren by water for kin. I was scared as she was goin to meet her bf later. I was very sure he will be furious..
After that i left and headed home, bren was worried i couldnt make it home but i was fine. When i reached home, i felt like puking but i thot that i lie down i would be fine..BUT NOOO. I quickly ran to the toilet and puked. This is the first time i puked after drinkin'. DAMN!!! the feelin sucked. Barely could eat. Had to eat slowly to prevent puking everythin out AGAIN.. The next day i was fine but stomach din feel right. Whatever i ate, i would puke it all out..
I went to the doc and i had gastric manz...the pain..aaarghh..
Besides new years eve, im back to sch..jus finish my common tests..AND yes..netball is startin again..woohoo..now, i can finally get back my fitness..weeee...HOPEFULLY..
well,thats all i can say for today..i tell yall in detail wat happened during my netball reunion next entry k guys..
take care..toodles..
{♥ } you're everything i know
Saturday, December 10, 2005
continuation..
In my previous entry, from the last line i wrote i'm sure yall know where this story is heading right?! haha...
Okay! We became closer as frens..yada,yada,yada....
As 2 weeks passed, we met occasionally at town, bugis or sometimes he'll come and pick me up at my work place. Before we knew it, we were getting even closer. We liked each other's company that we would talk long hours on the phone, even in the wee hours of the morning. We could talk just about anything. We were so alike in certain ways. One fine evening in town with him, he did something which made me feel uncomfortable, confused and shocked. We were just sitting down as per normal, face to face near wisma. I kinda banged him and he wanted to take revenge by poking my sides. I defended myself but almost fell off the short wall which we were sitting on. All of a sudden, he asked me to turn around..i was like WHAT FOR? to tickle me..haha.
So i turned around, my back facing him. He came closer like he was about to hug me. I was shocked. We even played, the drawing on the back guessing game..haha..boy, i sucked at it eventhough i played that game since i was young. Around 1130pm, we decided to head home.
A few months, we kept meeting and got closer day by day. I was even developing feelings for him. Soon, he confessed to me that he has feelings for me and so did i. After this, he nicely tagged along to my class chalet and we got even closer. As time passes, we were some sort of a couple but NOT. It was complicated. Both of us talked about this issue but still left it as it is. I felt disturbed and confused as i seriously didn't know what to do.
My feelings for him grew everyday. My heart, mind and soul was thinking of one guy and that guy was him. I guess i fell for him for the way he speaks, smiles, thinks, hugs, treat me, his lips, his heart and many more..Basically i fell in love with everything and anything that has to do with him. We kept meeting up frequently but when he started to work, we seldom met cause our schedules clashed. Around May, we kinda stopped meeting, calling and msging each other. I was not sure what happened between us but i assumed he may have went back with his ex. It hurts me so much but what can i do if he wants to be back with her. So i started to accept the fact and try to move on. SLowly the months passed and i knew deep down inside i still have feelings for him. Couldn't forget him.
In June, we contacted each other again but things between us seem to be left hanging. I hate it when he sends me msgs and gives me hope, like he still likes me n stuff. BUT what's the point, just come straight to the point and stop beating round the bushes manz..haiz..I don't think he knows what he has been doing to me and my delicate heart. Even in November, he seldom msg or calls. I REALLY GIVE UP manz..BUT in December, i finally decided to totally forget about him and all the memories we shared together. I deleted all his pics and msgs. A week later, i bumped into him in town around midnight near wheelock. I was having my favourite coffee with my sis when i saw him walking pass me. I immediately turn towards my sis. He was heading towards burger king with AHEM..2 gals. I then msged him informing him i saw him. I started shivering, heart beating fast and i broke out in cold sweat. I have no idea why i started behaving in that manner. He immediately called me and said he didn't see me as he was sleepy. He also said when he comes out, he'll come and talk to me...But he didn't. He like passed me without looking at me. I had to look at his direction, the gal looked at me then he turned. So i smiled and waved. He soon did the same thing. At that point of time, i was talking to kin. I so needed to tell her how i was feeling. When he left with the 2 gals, my sis thought i was going to cry but i wasn't. I just felt hurt as he like totally treated me like i was NOTHING!! I wasn't even treated as a fren or a human being. He treated it like nothing happened between us. haiz..that really broke my heart into many tiny pieces. After seeing him that day, that did it. I cried and cried for like 4 days. The next day i went to work all gloomy and depressed. I told Bobby what i was feeling. He said i take things to serious. Do i? But seriously, wouldn't you feel hurt if someone did that to you. Just leave you hanging and not telling or anything. Leaving you hurt, confused, depressed, miserable..sighh..
Last Thursday, i felt much better. I decided to really, actually forget all the moments and memories we shared together. It was not worth it as i'll keep thinking and sulking over him when he doesn't know or even care what i was feeling. I'm sure he is enjoying himself bluffing all the gals he meets. To think i actually wasted all my love, care and time on someone like him who would do such a mean thing to me. I thought hating him would make me feel better but it didn't. It made me more angry and depressed. SO IT'S OVER AND GONE WITH THE WIND. BYE BYE K.A.
well, that's all i can say..now i tend to move on to greater things in life. Like my studies and sports, having true, great frens around me..
Yall take care u hear.. will update again soon
(p/s:Never give your whole heart to someone. By giving your heart, you're allowing that person to love you But also a chance to hurt you. ---> choose wisely! )
{♥ } you're everything i know
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Things have been going DOWN HILL especially in the love department. Well, actually it has NEVER been heaven for me. I used to enjoy secondary school like when i used to play around. NOW that i'm serious, i keep getting hurt or used. If you know me since secondary school, you would know i ain't that kinda gal to actually cry for a guy or even get affected by what they say.
Why did i have to grow up and yearn for love? I wanted to experience the true meaning of love. Being with your other half who loves, appreciates, cares and would do anything for YOU. Everyone in life would most definitely feel really lonely at times because they don't have somone to hold their hand or give them a hug or to actually be with them in bad and good times.
Sometimes i wish things would go the way i want it to but love is unpredictable. Love sucks when it's ugly but it is SWEET when it is BEAUTIFUL.
Yall must be thinking why all of a sudden i'm sound so depressed about LOVE. Well, let me tell you a story...
While i was still with my ex, i met this sweet guy. He was just a new friend i could talk and laugh with. He too was attached. My ex and me were having communication problems and our relationship was kinda rocky. A mth later, i decided to break up as i wasn't really happy being with him as he just loves to test my love for him. So i was single for a few months. During those few months, my ex kept begging me back. He told me he would change and appreciate me more. When i realised he has really changed for the better, i decided to go back with him. It was a better relationship, not perfect but better. After 2 months, he accidently msg the wrong person. He was suppose to send this msg to this gal,stefanie but he sent it to me by mistake. Somemore, this particular msg he sent me when i first went with him. WAH LAO WEY!!!! GERAM SIA!! I met him, he still had the cheek to make me wait for him at paragon. i was so angry that on the way to Jurong, i didn't say a thing. All he wanted was his rokok. PISSED me off even more. I questioned him about the msg but he denies sending it. In the train, then he confessed everything to me.Haiz, sakit hati sia.. Shouted at him in the train and walked off to meet my frens. Once i reached i cried at mac. I couldnt control how i felt, hurt and pissed.
On that particular day, i just didn't want to go home. So i called the sweet guy instead of going fireworks gazing with them. Ate supper with him and talked about how i felt. He was the one who made me laugh and not think about my ex. EATING really helps.haha. After eating, we walked to bedok. While walking we passed road names like, Jalan sayang, jalan senang and jalan senyum. Kept laughing at these road names as i was feeling down about love. After this we became closer as frens.
to be continued....i gtg
{♥ } you're everything i know
Monday, November 21, 2005
2 weeks of school has passed. I seem to have loads of stuff to do. I do my tutorials but i haven't started on my maths. HAiz..must be consistent!! Been concentrating on most of my modules except maths. But going through the tutorials made me have a clearer understanding. I was actually thinking of giving up on maths (easy way out). Thought of just sending in my withdrawal form but i thought real long and hard, that maybe it's just the starting and haven't gotten the hang of it. PLUS i already bought the book. Chew Ting and i were worried that we won't be able to cope with the rest of our core module which were much more impt. I still have to go sch for 2 hrs on saturday for maths PLUS straight after that i have to rush to work. hectic!
I must learn how to manage my time wisely
Besides sch matters, been feeling pretty down about stuff. It hasn't affected me at all the past few weeks especially during lessons. BUT today my mind seems to be distracted during lecture. I had to shake myself in order to tell myself to focus. Luckily the lecturer repeated a couple of times. I'm having withdrawal symtoms i think..hahhaha...
well, thats all i gotta say..gotta get back to my work..toodles
{♥ } you're everything i know
